today is my first day blogging.... as i wanna make this entry a very memorable one... i do blog for a reason...

right now andy is beside me and he doesn't really seems to be with me... as i'm in a total lost i don't know what or how should i feel, act or response... i felt a deep sharp pain deep in me... don't ask me y cause it's not that important anymore even though it still matter to me more than anything else...

i kept asking myself that question "can i really let go and pretend that nth actually happen" NO i can't... it's not because i can't admit defeat or wat... it's just that she simply means too much to me... but looks like there is nth i can do abt it anymore... my morale n confidents drop to zero instantly...

i starts this blog with a special meaning in me... care to make a guess lol.... i'm not gonna tell u

boon actually tells me that "come on chyeong time will eventually heals everything"...and i agree but how long is it gonna take, a year or more ???? no one know.... even if time heals my wound but there wll always be that scar there for me to look at... thats memories i guess... but this memories just hurt too much, the pain is so damn unbearable. OUCH OUCH OUCH!!!!! how i hope i can just be like a gal and cry out loud but i can't. i told myself to be strong (but i'm a weakling inside)

so after reading for so long u must be thinking "so are u gonna give up" i'll leave that for u to imagine... but the ans is rather obvious ... i'm stubborn (no choice i'm a leo)... even if the result is the same i'll just keep trying n trying...

anyway help me jia you and bye bye